Today morning I woke up at 5:50 AM to workout for 30 minutes (week 2 of Jillian Michaels “Ripped in 30”). I really am enjoying my morning workouts at home and I was beginning to look forward to these.
I finished brushing, getting dressed and was ready by 6:20 to start the workout. Was sweating and feeling sooooo tired by 6:40 but still have 10 more minutes to go. S woke up and was getting ready to work. He leaves early sometimes as early as 5 AM. Yes….my husband is a very early morning person. But today he is late. So by 6:40, he is ready to leave to work and I have 10 minutes of workout left and I know Bunny does not wake up till 7:15 AM. Bliss isn’t it? I was thinking I can enjoy a calm cup of coffee after my workout, and…..IBoom..I hear a loud cry and a wail.
And it is Bunny, he woke up early. I went to check on him and he was crying and refusing to go back to sleep. To say that I am mad is an understatement.
This guy just refused to sleep and would not come with me so that I can give him milk. After like 15 minutes of soothing he fell asleep finally.
I go back downstairs and do 5 more minutes, and…happens again. He wakes up.
By this time, S very happily left to work.
I had to cut off my workout in the middle and go and sleep next to him.
I am just soo stressed out and generally mad about all this.
So anyways,finally consoled him got him to brush his teeth , gave him milk and he agreed to look at the ‘exercise’ dvd while I am completing my workout. Such a sweetheart!
But , the rest of the morning I was just blaming …well none in particular but was definitely feeling down. I was complaining to myself in my heart how don’t get 30 minutes of alone time to exercise, how its always about the kid, how I am always running either to get Bunny ready for school or running to work or trying to finiosh cooking so that we can have a early dinner in the evenings.
I was complaining to S over the phone. I also shed some tears while driving after dropping Bunny in school.
S consoled me saying we need to be playful while making him do some stuff.
And I come to work, and was generally browsing for a few minutes and I saw this blog post.
And then I cried…at my desk ..in the middle of my cubicle. It just is soo heart wrenching and sad.
I felt soo sad for the author Mom.
Also all of a sudden I felt grateful.
Grateful that I get to spend time with Bunny.
Grateful about the morning rushes and the evening chaos.
I felt foolish complaining in the morning.
I felt extremely thankful about my life.
And on this valentine’s day, I am happy that I have Bunny’s love to shower on us .
Happy Valentine’s day everyone.