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Crappy day

I had a great start to the day with my weight at 165 lbs, a 2 lbs lost from last couple of weeks.

However the rest of the day yesterday is just soo bad.

Bunny is in kindergarten now (like I mentioned in the last post). I got a call from the school front office in the afternoon asking me to stop by as he had an accident in the toilet. To say that I was shocked was an understatement. By accident they meant he wet his pants and I relaxed.

Since its kindergarten and Bunny rarely needs a second pair of dress for daycare, I did not pack any dress for him yesteryear in his bag. So I called them back and asked them to give him a spare dress. And the front desk lady says that he went potty on his pants as he could not reach the bathroom on time . Oh my gosh..I was soo embarrassed.

I went to the school (lucky I ljust work 10 mins away) and found him in the bathroom with poop on his shorts.

On gentle cajoling he said that he raised his hands for going to the bathroom to the teacher and he did go potty in the classroom bathroom but had poopy on his shorts and the teacher asked him to go to the receptionist/front desk.

I was shocked!!!

So he went like that from downstairs to upstairs office by himself , and they called me and he was sitting on the toilet for 15 minutes. I was very very suprised and angry that they did not even try to clean him up or change his clothes.

So today both me and hubby went and talked to his teacher. And she said we don’t clean them up and kind of made it sound like its not my job but the front office and all the front office did was call me. So I asked the teacher what do they do if I was 1 hour away from school…and she just said the front office is good about it..blah blah…

My poor Bunny…I was really really sad.

I do know that in kindergarten they don’t wipe their butts, but this is kind of bad where they don’t even have a spare dress just in case or try to clean him up instead of calling the parents.

Is this where we r headed towards where in they don’t help a 5 year old to clean up and offer shorts when there are no spare shorts available?

I was sad, and angry.

And I came home and broke my glasses.

And then in the dinner time, Bunny again was just being very rude and not listening and I just could not control. He got a very good yelling and I unfortunately had to hit him . No matter how much I control, I just lost my patience.

All these happenings followed by stress at work, 2 kids stress and everything..I just feel like running away from everything.

But I cannot. I woke up today and came to work!

 

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Everyday steps….how does yours look?

One of my goals is to be at work by 8:45 AM.Not 9, not 9:15 but at 8:45 AM. ON most days I drop Bunny to preschool and S picks him up in the evening unless I have an early morning meeting. This works for us except for the fact that by the time I reach work , its 9:15ish. And although most people in our section come in a  little late, I just want to slowly cultivate to a habit of being at work by 8:45 AM.

So here is how my working day looks like.

5:40 AM: Alarm rings; Wake up for exercise (although its not everyday, I  am trying to workout early in the morning…trying is the keyword here)

6:00 to 7:00 AM: Alarm rings; Wake up for exercise (although its not everyday, I  am trying to workout early in the morning…trying is the keyword here)

7:00 AM: Finish workout (Hopefully Bunny slept through my workout or else, go back n forth between the hall and bedroom and finally give up and bring him to the hall as well..:L()

7:00 to 8:00 AM: Fiish brush,bath and get ready.Get Bunny ready. Plead /beg/yell with him to finish milk without spilling.Give Bunny bath, oil massage, dress him etc.

8:00 to 8:15 AM: Make breakfast

8:15 to 8:40 AM: Feed him breakfast and eat some myself.

8:45 AM: leave to preschool to drop Bunny.

9:05 AM: leave from preschool reluctantly to work

9:20 Am: Reach work.

9:20 Am to 6:15 PM: At work.Some times later as well….

6:40 PM: Reach home.

6:45 to 7 :45 PM: Play, cook, talk with hubby. Usually hubby also pitches in with cooking and cutting veggies.Play with Bunny as well…although I am noting that nowadays I am not playing much with him. Its more “I am coming Bunny …as soon as I finish XYZ”

7:45 PM to 8:15 PM: Feed Bunny.

8:15 PM: Eat dinner.

8:30 to 9 PM: Cleanup kitchen. Generally make it little cleaner so that people don’t faint seeing the mess.

9 PM: Get Bunny to sleep. Read books together. Either fall asleep with him or just watch some 20 mins TV.

10 PM: Sleep.

 

I am not saying this is always my everyday process. On some days I give up and just sleep in till 7 AM..on some days I don’t cook and hubby pitches in(although this has been the norm the last week).But most days the above is the process.

So tell me dear friends, how can I improve this process to be at work by 8:45?

Is there something I am not good at?

How does your day look like?

On this Valentine’s day

Today morning I woke up at 5:50 AM to workout for 30 minutes (week 2 of Jillian Michaels “Ripped in 30”). I really am enjoying my morning workouts at home and I was beginning to look forward to these.

I finished brushing, getting dressed and was ready by 6:20 to start the workout. Was sweating and feeling sooooo tired by 6:40 but still have 10 more minutes to go. S woke up and was getting ready to work. He leaves early sometimes as early as 5 AM. Yes….my husband is a very early morning person. But today he is late. So by 6:40, he is ready to leave to work and I have 10 minutes of workout left and I know Bunny does not wake up till 7:15 AM. Bliss isn’t it? I was thinking I can enjoy a calm cup of coffee after my workout, and…..IBoom..I hear a loud cry and a wail.

And it is Bunny, he woke up early. I went to check on him and he was crying and refusing to go back to sleep. To say that I am mad is an understatement.

This guy just refused to sleep and would not come with me so that I can give him milk. After like 15 minutes of soothing he fell asleep finally.

I go back downstairs and do 5 more minutes, and…happens again. He wakes up.

By this time, S very happily left to work.

I had to cut off my workout in the middle and go and sleep next to him.

I am just soo stressed out and generally mad about all this.

So anyways,finally consoled him got him to brush his teeth , gave him milk and he agreed to look at the ‘exercise’ dvd while I am completing my workout. Such a sweetheart!

But , the rest of the morning I was just blaming …well none in particular but was definitely feeling down. I was complaining to myself in my heart how don’t get 30 minutes of alone time to exercise, how its always about the kid, how I am always running either to get Bunny ready for school or running to work or trying to finiosh cooking so that we can have a early dinner in the evenings.

I was complaining to S over the phone. I also shed some tears while driving after dropping Bunny in school.

S consoled me saying we need to be playful while making him do some stuff.

And I come to work, and was generally browsing for a few minutes and I saw this blog post.

http://lovelightlaughterandchocolate.blogspot.com/2012/12/be-with-me-just-for-today.html?spref=fb

And then I cried…at my desk ..in the middle of my cubicle. It just is soo heart wrenching and sad.

I felt soo sad for the author Mom.

Also all of a sudden I felt grateful.

Grateful that I get to spend time with Bunny.

Grateful about the morning rushes and the evening chaos.

I felt foolish complaining in the morning.

I felt extremely thankful about my life.

And on this valentine’s day, I am happy that I have Bunny’s love to shower on us .

Happy Valentine’s day everyone.

About being in love…with workout DVDs

The past 1 week was good (especially the Monday to Friday) as far as  working out and eating healthy is considered.

I did 2 days of Jillian Michaels ‘Ripped in 30’ and was was sore all over.

I did 2 days of Body Attack.

I know I have 3 days of no exercise, but working out was buried in the mounds of housework, cooking and a sick son and hubby.

Both son and hubby were sick last week and I had to ditch the plans to workout and just generally takeover. Usually hubby helps me with a lot of housework. If I cook, he cleans up and loads the dishwasher and keeps the son buy playing with him. I did not realize how much of a help he is until he fell sick and was generally under the weather.

But, both of them are OK now although hubby is still recovering. Thankfully I was a little sick but was back to normal within a week.

I kep telling hubby that its because of the workout and exercises and try to motivate him to workout without much progress. He simply does not exercise at all. Sigh…

But one lesson I learned throughout this 1 week is: working out in the morning is the best option. If I cannot make it to the 5:30 AM Body Attack class, at least I need to wake up at 6 A.M and do the ‘Ripped in 30’ or ’30 day Body Shred’ . All it takes is just 25 minutes and heart is pumping.

Amazing how 20 minutes of workout can make me sweat soo much.

Love Jillian Michaels and love the convenience of 20 minute workouts at home.

The weight remained almost the same although I gained 1 lb since I am back from Singapore :L.

Starting today, I want to target everyday of working out either a 20 minute workout video or a class…does not matter. I want to sweat and feel good. Its amazing how seating during and after the workouts makes me feel sooo happy.

Cooking fresh everyday or cooking once a week?

The other day I was talking with a good friend about cooking and cleaning  and he was arguing that cooking once a week saves them time because there will not be any cleaning, nor wasting time.Sure it works for them and it makes sense for them with a baby. But I never could (try as I did) go this route.

Even when Bunny was a baby, I would always cook fresh everyday.

Storing food in the refrigerator does not spoil it. I have some friends who cook for the entire week and they are done. I know some people who freeze food for the entire week. But somehow no matter how hard I try, I am not a big fan of eating food stored in the refrigerator for couple of days. Same with frozen food.

However I do make loads of idly and dosa batter and use that for quick snacks for the family. Also I do eat leftovers from a day before. However I cannot eat food cooked 2 days back. Here in the US and especially in the very cold winters, one advantage is food does not get spoiled. In winters sometimes I forget to keep food in the refrigerator (after dinner), and it stays fresh next day.

Why do I cook every day? Below are my reasons

  • I love cooking and trying new recipes. Before Bunny is born, I used to make a lot of different recipes (Thai,Chinese). Now I stick to the bare minimum.
  • I hate eating food from the refrigerator which is atleast a day old..Max is 2 days. After that even though the food is not spoiled, somehow that thought is in the mind that it is not fresh and somehow my appetite goes away.
  • When Bunny was around 10 months, I tried going this route but somehow I wasn’t just into it. I preferred spending 30 mins max to cook a simple curry.
  • I love fresh food and ingredients. There is nothing like eating hot rice and curry freshly cooked
  • I feel happy when Bunny eats food and likes it (freshly prepared). I somehow have a guilty feeling if I try not giving him anything fresh.

 

Tell me dear friends, how do you cook? Do you cook ever day, once in 3 days or once in a week? How do you manage it if you cook everyday?