This too shall pass…

Well I have disappeared again from this space.

Due to lot of some unnecessary emotional laziness, I have just stopped posting here.

I am very much alive although I feel I am always sad or stressed out or running behind something.

Lot of thinking going on in my head.

On the weight side, I have gained 3 lbs since the last post…so yeah forget weight loss,it is weight gain mode for me.

After Varalakshmi Vratam last Friday followed by lot of indulges over the weekend, I am taking matters into hand.

I did manage to exercise quite a bit on Saturday and Sunday (40 mins video workouts from Youtube) which made me sweat a lot.

From today, I am planning to exercise 3 times over the weekdays and once on Saturday.

Its funny how my weight creeps back slowly if I don’t make an effort to exercise atleast 4 times a week.

Its amazing how my face puffs up face after all the indulges over the weekend.

So I do want to keep my exercise promise and eat healthy.

So life in bullet points:

  • Should we move/buy house so that Bunny will get to go to kindergarten in 2014 in the new school within our district? Or should we stay put?
  • What and where will be 2 years from now?
  • Will S be able to move in 2 years from this place?

Sorry if these sound like riddles but the above are some questions I am thinking a lot about.

S ismore of a do what you want and he usually takes decisions very quickly. Me on the other hand brodd and think and brood some more before I make a decision.

And no matter how much I think or ask S, I /we are unable to reach a proper answer to the above questions.

Education is one thing I do not want to compromise on for Bunny. Hence the lot more dilemma.

Here in the USA, your house/apartment falls under a particular school . So if you want yur kid to go to a different public school (which is newer, nicer in our case), we have to either move to an apartment in that area or move to a different house.

So over the weekend we went to take a look at 2 houses.

The first one was very pretty but much smaller than our current home. We loved the smaller,cozy feeling and it has a finished basement. Only downside is the backyard is towards the road and there is no fence.

The second house is 100 sq feet larger than the first but we weren’t too impressed with it.

So what should we do?

I wish I am confident and take decisions with a snap of fingers.

Now I feel so vulnerable and stressed out about lot of things in life (not just above).

I am hoping this too will pass and that I have the strength to make a good decision.


When the mundane is awesome…and some thoughts

Life is sooo good when I am at work.I love it.I love the normalcy of a regular day when I drop Bunny at school/daycare and I go to work,come back make dinner and we all eat and sleep.

Lst week week was horrible in the family. S had major back pain and could not even turn. Poor guy suffered for a week. And after some acupressure treatment by a friend and 3 chiro sessions later, he is much better today

And the last 4 days, Bunny is sick with a high fever. The fever would subside when we give him Ibuprofen and he would be fine for 8 hours…as soon as the medicine would wear off, it would be back again. L

The doctor said, it’s a virus and did not give him any medication.

And oh..the unbelievable cough..amazing how much phlegm that a 4 year old could have..unbeleivable .

So needless to say, the 3 days keeping him at home was a challenge. We tried legos, some indoor activities, some TV time (well loottt of TV time), I downloaded some new apps… is tough to make a 4 year old stay home all the time.But I am glad we did. He is much better today and sent him to daycare.

I sometimes wonder how do all the stay at home Moms entertain young kids?

I mean we can only have so many play dates, and it wouldn’t be everyday. And there is still house work, cooking involved. I really really think, the toughest job is being at home to take care of kids. Its very enjoyable..but very tough. I sometimes wonder if living in a place like where I live makes it even harder. We hardly see people on the sidewalks except for Sumemr. Winters are horrible..absolutely dark by 4 PM.I somehow love the rustling and bustling of Singapore and India.

I have begun to realize that I am meant to not be a stay at home Mom. Everytime I stay home (and S always happens to be super busy at work during that time) I go crazy. I get depressed of not seeing any people. I see the empty lawn, the gloomy weather and I get sad. I think about the fun things we can do but somehow it does not cheer me up. I think of all gloomy thoughts.

Bunny being sick does not help either.

I don’t know if its tough just because there is no family closeby.

Or if it is tough for people with family closeby as well?

When he gets sick, I come soo close to quitting my job..but then after 3 days at home I realize I cannot be at home full time. Its just not a happy situation for me.

So sigh..its a circle, I should just be content that I am working and not worry about him going to daycare.

But the last 4 years, I have been thinking and re-thinking about the same thing..and I am back to square one.

So , tell me guys…do u enjoy staying at home?

Do you enjoy working?

Life in bullet points

I have been missing in action for a while now…I do read all my fav blogs ..apologize if I haven’t been able to comment.But here is life as it is:

  • Why is it always that previous years/stage of life sound much better and appealing than the present? For example, when in Masters I would feel Engineering life is soo much fun…and when in Engineering tenth class life is much better (would not say junior college life is good as I hated mine).Is it for me only?
  • Work is like super packed the last couple of weeks, but since 2 days I have reached a nice balance and enjoying the “down” time.
  • Exercise is happening although not so much like I wanted to.I am managing to get in some home exercises from my Jillian Michael’s DVDs and some walks during lunch breaks.
  • I love Jillian Michael’s DVDs. She rocks! I wish I could get her body !!!
  • Weight is however the same…it keeps fluctuating the same 2 lbs…sigh…
  • However dresses fit much nicer.:) Next time I should keep track of inches.
  • Waiting for the weather to warm up and this Saturday it is supposed to be 65  Degrees F in this part of the world; so looking forward to be in the park or play outside with Bunny. Maybe fly a kite…
  • I am obsessed with online shopping. I am just ordering stuff sooo much online and poor husband is worried seeing all the packages coming at different times.
  • I am in loveeeeeeeeeee with this…and on right time I ordered it when it went on a sale. Now I am waiting for this to show up at home so that I can wear it to work…..:) It went back to full price a few hours after I ordered it…Ha…
  • My new obsession is skirts…here is a picture with my fav skirt…comments are welcome ::))(Ignore the sloppy background work ) BTW, Bunny took this photo….my cute photographer..
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  • Did I tell you I am obsessed with online shopping nowadays? I ordered some orange cargos for Bunny…and they are supeerrrrrrrrrr cute.
  • I ordered 2 winter jackets for S, but both were a big flop/…had to return it to store …
  • We went on 2 road trips in the last 1 month. And it was super fun. One was with Bunny’s best friend in class and their parents to the Indianapolis Children’s museum and we super liked it
  • The other one was to Lego Land in Chicago…although the trip was fun because of friends, the lego land was OK.
  • Can’t wait for more summer trips and fun times.
  • I wish Bunny had some friends in our same sub-division so that they can stop by or he can go within a walking distance. The only time in weekdays he interacts with other kids is at school 😦
  • However weekends are super packed meeting friend’s kids or going out with friends. 🙂
  • I loveeeeeeeeeeee cooking so much that I cook sometimes after a grueling stressful day. And it provides me the opportunity to de-stress. Hate the cleaning up part though.
  • A friend’s Mother-in-law came home last weekend and made carrot pickle. And it was delicious.
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  • I want to a happening city….soon…..but just keeping intact because of S.

About not updating…and not dieting…..

I know..its been a long time since I updated the blog.Well the excuses reasons are many. Its been crazy busy both at work and home. At work ,loads of last minute things to do before I take off for holidays  and also  the year end reviews; at home Satyanarayana Swami vratam ,the cleaning up before and after that, cooking…and not to mention the weekend get togethers and parties. Needless to say lots of cooking and eating happening.

On the exercise front, I am squeezing in 3 workouts per week only. Want to target at least 4, but 3 is the number I could manage.

Food wise…sigh…with all the food and cooking , I am not doing very well.

On the weight front, I haven’t weighed myself for the last 2 weeks.

The last recorded weight was on Nov 26 at 159lbs (72.1 kgs)

The plan is to be strict with food and exercise( challenge: exercise 4 times a week)  and report the weight on this Saturday (Dec 15).

I have updated my weekly plan and goals page as well.

So wish me luck guys!!!

Post-Diwali thoughts

I feel sooo full post-Diwali. I have eaten copious amounts of sweets some homemade, some store bought. This year I made Besan laddus and Ravva laddus for the very first time and they came out really well.

Diwali is all about spreading the joy .I made 70 ravva laddus and 30 Besan laddus this year. I bought some nice festive boxes and decorated with some satin ribbons and packed the sweets to all my close friends.

All my friends are mighty impressed with the Ravva laddus and I got some awesome compliments.

Since it is the first time I am trying Ravva Laddus I was really scared how they will turn out. But I did not realize that they are soo simple to make. The end result was also good.


This Diwali for the very first time, we bought crackers here in the US. In Illinois, crackers are available only during the July 4 th time. This year I planned for Diwali and bought whole bunch of sparklers and some other flowerpots etc. And what a wise decision it was. We had some friends whose kids are almost the same age as Bunny. The kids had lot of fun burning crackers. It was sooo much worth it seeing all their smiles and happiness. It is soo true that happiness when shared is doubled. I do hope that we have loads of good friends for all the ups and downs in life.

We had a potluck, and I apart from the sweets, I made some simple items. My friends bought one item each and it turned out fantastic. Food was good, kids had fun till late even though its school day next morning. Adults had fun too. Overall this is the best Diwali in the recent years.

Food wise, I did have loads of sweets and as a result have a bad cough since 2 days. S has been really good and gives me ginger and honey everyday. Poor guy had to clean up after all my cooking also.

I sometimes feel he is definitely the “better half”.

Exercise has taken a back seat. I am however tracking my food expect for the Diwali day. I wanted to go to the Body Attack class today, but just slept off and could not wake up. I should be back to my exercise from tomorrow.

The last time I checked my weight on Nov 9, I was still at 157.9lbs. With all the Diwali eating, my only goal for this week is to be the same. However, for that I need to do some intense cardio these 3 days. Here is my goal for these 3 days before the next weigh in:

Nov 15: 30 mins of fast walking, Do 40 mins of Jillian Michael’s Shred

Nov 16: Body Pump, 30 mins fast walking

Nov 17: Body Attack class.

Other goals:

Keep tracking food.

Drink 8 glasses of water.

Stick to 1400 calories per day.

Wish me luck guys as I do need that.

Winter Woes begin….

Every year right around this time I start feeling depressed and cold. And I blame it on the weather. No matter how much cheerful I try to be I just can’t help it. I blame hubby dear for having to be tied to this place, I blame the weather,I blame everything under the sun…I just am in a bad mood on most days.

Also did I mention I just feel like eating hot food and a lot of it. I feel sooo hungry all the just sucks big time. Also with hypothyroidism, the cold winter and the hunger cravings, the peorid during this time does not help for my weightloss efforts at all.

Needless to say all my Summer time efforts go to waste starting this period. I gain back all the weight and an additional around this time. I feel heavy, tired, depressed and stressed out. And I feel soo lonely.

I just wish all the time that I were in a place where there are no winters. Here in the Midwest it already feels like winter (what with jackets and sweaters) and I hate it. This is my 12th winter and every year I just cry when winter is here.

I have contemplated of moving to a warmer place with Bunny every winter and stay away from hubby (Since hubby cannot move). I know I am that crazy (read hate) about winter. However, I know that it just will not work if I take that step.

So I am back to square 1….suffering another winter.

However, since exercise just makes me sooo good about myself and improves my mood vastly during winters, I have decided to exercise and a lot to hit the winter blues.

I have decided to do some action oriented steps in order to make weight loss happen even during winter time.

So here is my plan

  • Go swimming at least once a week in the month of November.
  • Go to gym for Body Attack and Body Step classes for 3 times a week.
  • Go to Body Pump 1 time a week.
  • Do the Jillian Michaels 30 day shred on days that I have not met the above goals.
  • Continue with tracking food, exercise in sparkpeople.

My goal is to be at 152 lbs by Dec 19,2012. I currently weight 158.5lbs.

It is very achievable. I just have to stick to it every day.